31 January 2008


Okay so I thought about this all night and I'm not quite sure how to "fix" me... I know it sounds crazy but I think I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). I think many people already think I'm nuts but I can't help it. I don't know how to stop myself from wanting to do EVERYTHING! I truly think this started years ago when I was in highschool. In highschool I insisted on being active in alot of different things, sports, cheerleading, student council, etc., not to mention I worked every summer a couple jobs and blah blah blah.... But I really don't know where it all stems from exactly.

Sometimes I think, well, maybe it's because I want to try to accomplish everything I possibly can in my lifetime because I don't want to go through life and be 90 years old thinking, geez I didn't really do much in 90 years....
Or maybe it's because I'm a kid stuck in a adult's body that still doesn't know what I want to be when I grow up.
Another thought is that I don't want to regret not trying to do something, so instead I want to do everything. The options for this go on and on but I can't pinpoint what the real reason I overwhelm myself is. I'm really not happy unless I have a million things on my plate.

I guess not everyone reading this knows a day in the life of me and what it consists of. But it's waking up getting myself ready, waking up 3 girls, my husband, the dog, getting the girls ready and combed, washed, etc., cereal, lunches made, make sure everything is in their backpacks, and off to school. Dropping one or two off at school and daycare (my husband takes one or two or whatever is good for that day) going to work, or on the way to work, only to be stuck in traffic. Blogging, umm I mean working all day, trying to find another job that will somehow fulfill my boring work life void, dealing with old men all day thinking they are kings in this corporate world, leaving work (early cause nobody even notices) picking up the girls all at different locations, dropping one off at tutoring or soccer, picking up and dropping the other one at dance, picking up the other one and waiting for dance and tutoring to end, go home, homework with the girls, dinner, baths, story time and to bed for the kids... then I try to relax on the couch for a while before falling asleep on the couch, only to be woken up by my husband at midnight telling me to go to bed, at which time my youngest daughter wakes up crying uncontrollably, screaming to come to my bed so she can kick me all night in the ribs and face. Drift off to sleep, BEEP, BEEP, BEEP, snoooooooze.... WAKEUP and do it all over again!

So yes, maybe it's complaining and maybe I do this to myself, but on top of all this I hope to scrapbook in my free time, wait.... what free time? I also want to get back into painting, I want to do great things with my photography by creating an online store - etsy.com, I want to get into the franchise business, work with my real estate license, take photography classes--I missed the cutoff for February class-ugh! Oh yeah and landscape my backyard by myself, at the same time as having a fourth child by the way... That's not too much right?

30 January 2008

So this is the beginning.....

The beginning of a wonderful blog.... or so I hope anyway. I have been contemplating this blog for some time now but never got the nerve to start one up. I am to say the least self-concious, about everything I write. Anyhow, I won't get into that, I am here and I'm here to stay. This blog is an attempt to make myself the craftiest person I know. I love art in all forms, I draw, paint, and love to take pictures. My new love is scrapbooking, which by the way I haven't even started yet! :) I buy things every once in a while when they're on sale (because I'm frugal), and I have a collection of things in my home office just waiting to get put together. My most recent purchase was the Cricut and I love it, but I still have yet to actually use anything that I've cut out.

So with all the help from readers and searching the web, I hope to "borrow" some scrapbooking ideas and become a scrapbooking legend!

One thing you'll learn about me is that I can make an excuse for ANYTHING! I am a procrastinator in every sense of the word. If I have an hour until a deadline, I will wait until the 50th minute to start it and I will be done on the 60th minute, because I work well under pressure........ but if I do this with scrapbooking it will never work out and not one measley scrapbook will ever come out of my office/craft area, instead I will wait until I'm 99 years old and barely able to pick up a picture out of my box and then I'll start. Maybe I'll be done before I'm 100. :)

You would think that since I was in the Army that I would be disciplined, motivated, ready to work all hours of the night to do this, but I'm not. The Army changed my life in every way but after I got out I reverted to my old ways, why? Because I can!

Another thing, I have 3 kids, all girls, ages 8 (soon to be 9), 5 (soon to be 6) and a 2 year old. They all do extracurricular activities and leave me with little time to rest or breathe. So where will I find time to be the crafty person I long to be???? Heaven only knows! I need motivation, lots and lots of motivation.